Next year, I will be a senior.
I ran for VP of Productions two weeks ago. What the VP of Productions does… is plan out and carry through with assemblies. They organize EVERYTHING and all of the responsibility goes to them. In order to win this office, you had to be elected. I had posters and tshirts- the whole shebang. I also had to write an essay explaining why I would be an excellent officer, and I had to have an interview with 10 of this year’s senior class officers. In addition, I had to have each teacher of mine feel out a teacher recommendation sheet. (There were 4 possible offices you could run for: President, VP Productions, VP Activities, and VP service.)
all in all, I thought I had a great job with how everything had gone. we had primary elections on Monday through Wednesday. Then on Wednesday afternoon we each got called out of class to find out if we had made it to final elections. Out of the 6 candidates running for Productions, there would be 2 chosen. I wasn’t chosen.
so… when I get pushed down I stand up and move onto the next thing. which was to run for appointed office. There were a total of 6 offices that were appointed: Artist, Promotions, Publicity, Historian, spirit and photographer. you could run for more than one office- so I ran for promotions, publicity and spirit. I was required to have teacher recommendations, and essay, a portfolio for each office, and another essay for each office. plus: another interview.
everything was going smoothly. I turned in my essay and portfolio in on time, and I scheduled a great time for my interview. the interview went very well! they asked a lot of the same questions from my elected office interview, and I had come up with even better answers. There was a very real connection I had with the officers.
many of my friends had run for appointed offices as well. one was running for historian- which she had a different person make up her portfolio. how does that count for honesty?
there was another girl who was running for office because “she wanted in on her college resume… and might as well get the officer jacket with it as well! But in all seriousness, all of the offices did not look interesting AT ALL!”
I also had one of my best friends running for spirit- she had told me she was too scared to run for elected because she “couldn’t face her student body.”
well.. as Friday rolled around, we each got called out of class once again. Senior officers had been talking to me all day and informing me that I had such a great chance- they had put down really good scores for me- and they believed I would be such a great officer for next year. my confidence increased, and I was ready to find out. although I was confident- I WAS NOT COCKY, AND I DID NOT LET IT SHOW.
each of the offers read off the names for who would be officers and for what position next year. my name was never read. it was upsetting though, because, without saying names, these are who made office:
artist: a kid who cheats on every single math test. (he’s a great artist, but completely not honest.)
spirit: the girl who “was too scared to face her student body.” how can you be a spirit officer while being too scared to face your student body? you have to be outgoing and be able to put yourself out there!
promotions: another great kid, who has been an officer twice before since 6th grade.
publicity: another great girl who has also been an officer since 6th grade.
historian: the girl who had somebody else make her portfolio for her. Completely dishonest.
I was upset. it is going to be a really hard year next year to look at these people as my senior class officers. They have either cheated their way into it, or have been an officer several of times before. I, on the other hand, had been completely honest about my work. I was excited to face my student body. I had new ideas that our school has never seen before! I have ran since 6th grade!
Next week is the meeting to run for senior class officers. There are three people there who will make it. Unfortunately, all those people are in charge of is seniors week, and planning the high school reunions for the rest of your life. I am not running to be an officer “just to be an officer.” I’m not there “just because you get the jacket.” and personally, I do not want the life sentence to be in charge of class reunions. I will not be running for senior class officers- because from my point of view- that’s all they are.
it has been an hurtful week. I know- that I could’ve committed myself to be such a great officer, and this was my last chance. I have planned my senior year schedule around me being an officer. I had such great ideas! I’ve tried for 6 years! I just wish I could’ve known where I went wrong, and what I could’ve improved on.
well. that’s it. I’m a sore loser I guess. but this is just one of those days where my feelings have overtaken the keyboard.
to anybody who read this: thanks for letting me vent.


Jimmy fallon is a late night talk show host. and i just think he is adorable. look at that smile! not to mention he is freakin hilarious!
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